Seeking Shelter Away from the Madness

Living with a person who is on alcohol or drugs is something that would cause anyone to have fear. You never know what that person is going to do at any moment. At one point, they may be calm and cool, and the next they may flip out and lash out at you, even if you did nothing to them. My husband uses both alcohol and drugs, and he’s lashed out at me multiple times. One time he even broke my arm. I feared for my life, and went to to move into an apartment because I couldn’t take the abuse any longer.

I wished that my husband would get those demons out of his body, and hoped that he would become the way he was when I first met him, but I wasn’t going to stick around for this to happen. Beating an addiction to drugs or alcohol is something that can only happen if a person wants it to happen, and even then they can’t do it alone. My husband believes he can control himself, but my body has proof that he can’t. He hasn’t acknowledged that he has a problem, and he probably won’t for a while.

Many people have tried to help my husband, but he’s lashed out at them as well. I’m scared that he might try to harm someone else, or he might try to harm himself. Short of putting him in a mental intuition or forcing him to go to a detox center, I don’t know what can be done for him. I don’t want him to go to jail, because it won’t give him the help he desperately needs. He would only be locked away while going through withdrawal symptoms, and once he gets out, he’ll be right back in the same position.